2009 passed by ridiculously fast. A year filled with loads of trials and tribulations. Bombarded by tons of problems. Then there was a myriad of negative emotions - pain, agony, heartache, depression, anger, upset. I was like a rebel child. Of course, the endings went wrong. I was unhappy, I didn't do well, I didn't feel a sense of accomplishment. None of you would understand the immense pain I had to go through this year.

However, despite everything that tried to thrash me, there were things and people who tried to make 2009 a memorable year for me, and I'm really lucky to have them with me. :)

I guess it's really true when they say that the Lord will never torture you more than you can ever bear. :)

To my family: Thank you for constantly being there for me, even though I haven't been the best daughter or sister anyone could ever have. When I was down and out, you guys never left me to die.

To 0901: Thank you for being a wonderful class, and I really appreciate each and every one of you for making the effort for trying to blend in and be an awesome class. Though I won't be with you guys next year and the class being a lot smaller, I hope you guys will forge even closer bonds and we'll all go for prom together next year alright!

To JAMS: The 3 of you are and will always a special bunch of girls. Thank you, my dear clique! :)

To NYChoir: Thank you for being such a wonderful choir. I admit when I first came in, I did have my reservations about staying in this choir due to the sound quality and all, but as the times passed, I begin to feel more at home and happy. Thank you for showing me a totally new perspective of what choir is and what it could possibly be.

To NYChoir Committee Members - Rachel, Simon, Gabriel, Carl, Yan Jun, Hansi, Olivia, JY, Anita, Monica, Kerlene, Nabillah, Charmaine, Zhuo Hong, Si Hao: Thank you, for being the most awesome choir committee members I ever, ever had. I have never, ever, ever had been in a committee so closely bonded together and I really enjoyed every moment spent with each and every one of you. Also, I"m really grateful for all the support and never-ending encouragements that you guys have showered me with throughout the year. I love all of you even though you guys can be so, so scandalous at times. Haha. Let's bring our choir to greater heights in 2010, shall we? :)

To AMK Youth - Marisa, Gayle, Quinne, Erika, Racheal, Casey, Celine, Tania, Dawnna, Bryan, Galvin, Royden, Trey: Most of us are childhood friends from church, but I have never felt so close to you guys until this year came and everyone made an effort to talk to each other and make our bonds stronger. Thank you for being the most awesome ward friends anyone can have. To the YW: Thank you for being awesome YW and being of good example to me. I really enjoyed the chalet with you guys for the past three days (even though I fell down because you guys insisted we did night cycling even though I kinda learnt it for about half an hour that very afternoon! And of course, not forgetting how you guys pakup with Bishop to make me sing the same songs for the two nights!) where I really got to know each of you better! Truth and Dare was so funny, and so was the game shoot, shag and marry! HAHA. I think we had our share of laughter during that game! xP Anyway, next year will be my last year in YW. Before I leave, I would really hope to see each and every one of you to be closer to each other, and possibly finish PP! Let's make that our goal, shall we? :D To the YM: I used to think that YM were just a bunch of annoying boys trying to learn how to grow up (from past unhappy experience. and no, it was not confined to the ward boys.) but I realised that I was wrong. Thanks for being such a wonderful (though can be uber annoying) bunch of guyfriends and I hope that you all will grow up to be stronger and closer bunch. :)

To the bunch of closest friends outside AMK Ward - Amanda Loh, Amanda Xu, Myra, Ally, Yee Mun, Ying Er, Marie Low, Hui Yi, Michael, Shuan, Geraldine: Thanks for ALWAYS, ALWAYS being there for me. You know I can't express how much I love you guys because I always do and always will. I really want all of us to stay close together even though some of you are going off to Uni (Mainly BYU(Hawaii) or BYU(Provo)) next year. See y'all tonight! :)

To some of my ex-OLP friends - Jane, Zheng Yuan, Leslie, Kenneth, Travis: I know this is so unbelievable, but I think we talk much more this year than the past 2 years combined (with the exception of Jane, of course). I'm just so glad that we're still on good talking terms even though we're no longer in the same schools. Jane: Thanks for asking me out several times this year even though there were times where I was wayyy too busy to meet you, I'm so sorry. Well at least we kinda got to meet up, heehee. :) Zheng Yuan: STALKER! I will never, ever forget all the random conversations you had with me on MSN which made me SO HIGH AT UNCANNY HOURS so much that my mum thought I went INSANE! Try to have less stalker tendencies next year alright! :) Leslie, Kenneth: I think I've been rather mean this year huh, like 80% of our conversations being me the annoying kid whining and whining, but both of you were nice enough to listen to me whine anyway, so thank you. I will try to whine less next year okay! :) Travis: I was really tempted to say that you're the most annoying guy I've ever met in my life - until I came to NY and found out that there are people worse than you! Lol! And anyway, thanks for being a true friend and for all the smses, MSN convos and phonecalls when I was so upset over that. (I must be honest and say that I was quite shocked by the way you responded initially and I was wondering if someone else was typing/talking. Heehee.) I guess I'm finally ready to start the new year on a fresh, clean slate. :)

To Ee Chien, Sabrina, Gloria: I will never, ever miss the three of you, even if I miss out 80% of the people above. The three of you are the few most precious people to me because without the three of you, I don't know if I'll still be here, typing this away today. I want the three of you to know that I'm really alright now, I have gotten over the trauma and I'm genuinely ready to start afresh. I won't let my problems come along with me when the new year starts. You have my word. When I was in my deepest, darkest pithole, you guys were there to pull me up and make sure that I stay afloat and not drown further. You guys stood by me when I had no one else to turn to. You guys made me feel comfortable enough to tell you my fears, my worries and my trials and never once left me to fend for myself. I'll never forget those ECP trips where I'll just watch the swash and backwash, talking to one of you, releasing all the emotions hidden in me from everyone else who thought I was perfectly fine. I remembered a particular phonecall to one of em', contemplating some of the worst things that no one will ever believed to have been thought of by me. (It's easy to guess though) But you guys were there to stop me from entering what was seemingly known as hell, so I'm forever indebted to you three.

To everyone else: Thank you for being a part of my life, whether big or small. Thank you for the little advices, the encouragements, the never-ending love and joy, the pains inflicted to make me stronger, the tribulations to overcome, the support. I will always be grateful for all of these blessings that have been showered upon me. :)

Anyway, I've made up my mind. I've decided to repeat, to start afresh as a J1 kid. I genuinely hope that y'all will continue to support me (as promised) and treat me the same way as you guys had as before. I'm done being the rebel and naughty kid and I will strive to be a better daughter, cousin, niece, friend and everything else in the years to come.

In twenty ten, I promise you that I'll be that happy, bubbly and confident girl that I once was. I'm going to turn sweet eighteen and be a more mature girl! :)

Extended Family Dinner followed by New Year Eve Dance (with countdown) tonight!

Awesome way to spend end the whole of 2009. :)

Oh wait, before I forget, I have to thank these people for the awesome Christmas presents, cards and smses!

Presents/Cards:

The parentals, Ee Chien, Yee Mun, Ally, Dawnna, Sis June, Marisa, Casey, Geraldine, Cookie, Shuan, Myra, Amanda Loh, Fiona, Chun Ling.

SMS:

Zhu Neng, Yi Ying, Xintao, Charmaine, Jin Yang, Noelle Tan, Charissa Teo, Galvin, Michael, Jane, Leslie, Geraldine, Chu Xian, Nabillah, Sab, Sharon Seng.

THANKYOU SO MUCH! I REALLY REALLY LOVED THEM!!! :))

BTW, YW Chalet, yes. I'm a lil' tired to update on it now, but if you're anxious, go check out Gayle's and Quinne's blogs first! :) My life was the most dramatic amongst all - this includes a guy in a standard marathon singlet, singing songs i wanted to hide from the rest of my life, getting mad at someone and more. Lol! More updates soon! :)

Okay, I shall do up my new diary and check out the pictures (and unglam videos) Marisa uploaded on FB during the AMK YW chalet before dinner tonight. :)

HAPPY TWENTY TEN (in a couple of hours), EVERYONE! :D

Xoxo.

PS: Michael, you owe me big time for finding lightsticks for tonight's dance. Haha. xP